I wanna be proved.

Today, my friend asked me to go out to have dinner~~ I agreed...........at the same time, I thinked about sth. He said I am becoming ugly according to my photo before..AND we haven't met for 3 years......

My os was " to prove I am beautiful!!!!" but little bit afraid I am not ....................making up, trying different clothes, to make things perfect.............................I am nervous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Can't believe it ....but I DO. The main point is, I lost 3KG weight already...but still far more fat than used to be.

I need to be proved., cross the barrier. face the one and told him , he was totally wrong!!! But I even want to call him saying, I am not going! Luckily, I am not.

Because. he still think I am pretty., maybe not that much, but it is not that fat as the pic shows. and I also met so many Hunanese, we speaking in dialect, sharing jokes, and I can felt someone staring at me.

MY YOUTH, MY PASSION, MY CHARM...........

The next step!!

-3kg!!again!!

hold on , hold on............I CAN HANDLE IT!!

In process

Bought the eroustar! I can through the sea to France~~~~~~~~~~

Dissertation proposal was being checked by Winston and Maria...........A lot need to do.

HOOPS~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

What a day........................................

On one hand, excited about my future Christmas celebrate and French travel!~~~~ On the other hand~~~~~~~~I am desperated in my following 3 essays! & this proposal~~~!!!!

Gesus.........GET ME OUT OF STUDY~~~~~~~~~~~~~OR HELP ME THROUGH ALL THE DISGUSTing ESSAYS!!!!!!!

Do !!please!! If you're really exsist.

Stay up

Now is Greenwich time 7:26am.
I can't believe ether, didn't fell asleep the whole night........

What I was thinking?
Sth amazing.

For example,

when go back to home?

How to organize my luggdges between holidays?

What is my future job?

Where I will live in the end of next year?

What am I eatting for tomorrow?

Should I keeping on a diet?

How can I write the political essay? & dissertation proposal?

Should I come to Manchester this Saturday?

What I want to buy in Christmas?

What can I prepared for gifts to my dear friend?

BLABLABLABLABLA~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
So much~~~~~~~~~~~~my brain is BLOWING~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

That's why I cannot sleep......
Stupid, right?

Things will come, when it coms.

Go in good health!

The things needs to be done from 12.8-12.20!

1. Finishing 2 essay, 1 proposal.
1)borrow books.
2)read
3)one by one
4)start to write

2. Lose weight -5kg.
I am doing, drinking lemon water, eatting less.
Already -1kg, GOOD MOVE!

3. Change to the right time-zone.
1)go to bed before 12pm
2)get up before 10am
3)Moving fast
4)Plan what I am going to do every single day, and do it!
5)DADA

Hahahahaha.
Go in good health, that's what max said, for me, go in good mood as well~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Cheers!

Yes, it did.

Everytime I saw the picture from my friends, hometown, BJ, everything..

They are doing so well.. I am pround of them. Also missing them.

Especially the great Chinese dishes!

Hahahahaha.

Don't know which way to go.

But actually that's everyone concerned...so stop being blue.

No more thinking, just do it!

It's tuff.

After one year.

1. If I have no change(by appearence), friends may feel no surprise.
2.if I am getting too fat? everyone will avoids me, including myself.
3.If I am turnning to slim, mom will afraid I was not eatting well in UK.

(Anyway, I prefer the last one, although I am acting the second one. )

In this year.

1. I cannot decide what research I am going to do for final dissertation.
2. The topic I chosed right now is ....just felt no good .
3. But if I chose advertising ...I am no familiar with it, just felt interesting, so it may also hard to do the research.
4. I would like to do sth related to my future career. But I have no plan for my future career right now....................................What I thought before, has already fade out...
5. It's just a dissertation, or my whole career life....................................
6. So I cannot make decision.........I was thinking , thinking ,thinking,,for nothing......................

(Maybe I was thinking too much,but it is the reality , all right? I have to figure sth in my entire life, all right? I cannot relying on my parents forever, all right? Hey !come on! Show me the way out. )

___________________________________________________________________

LET IT GO....................NO BIG DEAL........................IF 2012 IS THE DEADLINE.....................WHY NOT CHEERS IN EVERY SINGLE DAY......................

RELAX~~

Woke up in the noon, with joy.

No bad dreams interrupped.

I never as strongly expected to go Sainsbury as today.

Milk!!SOYA!!Yougurt!!Cheese!!&Cashews.

Great, full of protein.

And then I was back, enjoyed a cartoon moive, called "Cloudy with a chance of Meatballs".

Really interesting~~~~~~~~~~and qute~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

HAHAHAHAHA~~