Desperated? exausted? empty inside..definitely. Begging for a job u would regret for it. U dont know how u get into this field, pressure from daily life, pressure from being nothing, but it's like..haha. people thought u re doing sth. It looks good, u have good resume in the first impression, u"ve done many things before, u have been invited to embassy to have dinner, u have been working with some maybe brilliant people, but what u really learned from these, none? maybe u learned sth,that is if u dont like sth, u will do it in the worse way. so that is what u r doing now. u dont really want the job from lawyer assistant, but u have to. u dont wanna continue doing a interpreter and computer machine, u have to. u became more and more lazy, lazy about chanllenge urself, u felt unsatisfied, but dont know how to break the ice. horrible indeed. U dreamed about happy ending life, travelling all around, far away from home, to be independent , but without work, u can never reach that far.
Hey..be realistic ok? if U don't like ur situation, pls do change!!!!!!!now!!!!!!!never too late to change!!!!! stop mircoblogging that much, stop accepting rubbish information, stop eatting what u dont need, stop blaming on anything else!! u, r what u make.
Be happy, healthy, positive, and be in love
